Last night I had the most unusual dream- not that all of my dreams are not unusual, this one was completely off the grid. Having family and friends both in a dream is refreshingly new, but the conflict in the dream story was that bears all over the country were attacking humans. The bears were not provoked nor hungry, they were acting more like serial killers. In my mind's dream I understood that this was an issue of mass consciousness.
As the bear approached everyone ran into the house and locked the doors. The bear proved to have the mental and physical ability to open doors and everyone ran out into the garage and was trying to drive away. Under normal circumstances I most probably would have my heart up into my throat, but this time I kept trying to get everyone to stop panicking and "believe" with calm and loving hearts.
Of course, I was considered off my rocker and the pandemonium continued. As everyone in the car shared the horror stories they had heard about the bear attacks across the nation, an ancestral soul appeared and asked me to remember "The Way". His presence was real and he was strong. My "Shaman" reminded me to BE-come "Grandfather". In my present life I refer to Bear Totem as Grandfather in step with traditional meaning. In this, one aligns with the energy of an animal or being by shapeshifting into that particular animal, creature, insect or being.
The carload of people in the garage began to scream and freak out as the bear started to rip on the door handle. I realized I was now standing outside of the station wagon. My body had the incredible sensation of change and movement; I was transforming into Grandfather, standing tall on my hind legs, my front paws up in the air with a commanding grunt emanating from my open mouth. My intention as Grandfather was to send respect to the upset bear and to pull him from his reverie.
He turned to me and as mass consciousness dictates, I learned from this private and invisible form of communication of the pain of the Bear.
Seeing from the behind the eyes of another is powerful and enlightening. It does not excuse the behavior nor does it bring the guest behind the eyes into the same pattern of current behavior and thought. Seeing from behind the eyes of another brings one the ability to see the situation from the same paradigm, therefore, allowing the seer to address the problem with clarity and focus. Immediately the bear hung his head and sat low to the ground. Without a sound or movement, Grandfather commanded the bear to raise his head. Forgiveness was offered and Grandfather offered his services to the Bear. In that moment all Bear understood and I realized that they would be heard and heal.
My Ancestor offered, "You offer this journey of standing behind the eyes of another. It is not meant only for those who ask for it. You use it yourself to give benefit of the doubt and to see your part in a situation. This must be applied to all Life. This must be shared and used to understand and help the animal, the planet and the child; it should most decidedly used to understand the weak, the criminal. For in understanding that pain and anger, one can send love to him and forgive. One will not be condoning the person, but one will be in a place of Knowing. Judgment does not exist in a place of Knowing, in a place of Love."
My mind made the several connections in several situations at once. It amazed me to see a glimpse of the unlimited ability of the Higher Mind. I realized that by living this lesson in a shamanic way that I was being reminded that we are all of the same consciousness and that we are indeed hurting the animal kingdom, we are tainting it with hate, anger and greed. If I can feel these feelings from others as I drive down the corridor, I am sure that the Kingdom of Nature can feel it much more powerfully than I.
In your moments of explosion, anger or sadness, consider if this is yours or not. Perhaps in a small way you are open to these emotions and just being susceptible to them makes you open to exert the anger or pain of another.
Again, the Shaman reminded me of the need to turn in. In times of strife and pain, one must turn in to Self and Love. In times of understanding behind the eyes of another one must turn in to Self and Love before and after this journey. Self and Love - it is who we Are.
Friday, March 21, 2014
Sunday, December 8, 2013
Manifesting Your Miracles
Magazine articles, movies and stories of miracles seem to dominate the season each Christmas. We read of miracles in the Bible and we think of these awing events as something that happens in Biblical times or only to others.This stories gives up hope and brings us joy. What makes a miracle happen and what does love have to do with it? (HaHa, Tina Turner, you are singing in my head.) Do prayers help and how do we pray? There are no rules to praying and there is not a limit to what is available to you. Some prayers work out the way we want them to and other times, they work out the way we need them to.
To make a prayer more powerful, it is believed that the prayer should be said, it should be vocal. Perhaps the question in my mind is if the prayer is written is it as powerful as vocal? Voice gives it vibration and creation and life is vibration. We are vibration. I cannot help but think of how dancing makes me feel. The more I sing and dance, the more alive I feel. Vibration is jumped started with every extreme emotion. After crying I feel cleared and more alive.
Scientists have found that when the number of people praying number at least the square root of one percent of the population that is being prayed for, the praying can move mountains. On the day of 9/11, the measurements done on the earth painted a remarkably different picture than any other day. The world was praying and the energies being measured showed this peace and the crime rate all over the well fell to almost non-existent. Mass prayer is phenomenal. What if the prayer was written and many people read it, would it be just as powerful as the prayers said by several people at one time?
Another dimension to the effectiveness of prayer is to pray from the heart. It is understood by many that you can manifest your desires by thought as discussed in the book, "The Secret", which is powerful, but logic and reason male and male is duality. In duality, if your joy from your answered prayer is 70%, then you can expect an opposite of 70% which can come in the form of grief, sadness, frustration or anger. Praying from the heart is female. Female or the feminine creates. Creating from the heart is in Unity, but not in duality. Therefore, your answered prayers are pure joy.
Staying mindful and focused on our thoughts in each and every moment is difficult at first. You see I wrote, "at first". Like all of our abilities and thinking skills, we need to practice the skill. No doubt it will be even more frustrating for anyone who sits in front of a television for hours. Television is broadcast in a manner that only requires focus for two to three minutes at a time. Even worse for our children, television shows are written in the speaking vocabulary of second graders and most newspapers are written on the fifth grade level. We are programmed in our media to be receptors, not thinkers or creators. To be mindful will require that we use our own minds and be aware and present always. It is not hard, just different. Being mindful is a form of prayer to me. Thoughts create, the Universe responds to our thoughts. Therefore, to me, each thought is a mini-prayer beginning creation of joy in my life .I should write that this is my experience.
What if I wrote my fantasy and it was read by all of you? Would your mind and heart manifest it into reality? The part of me that loves science is challenged to experiment. Or maybe it is a part of me that knows this is true and wants validation and an energy boost. It doesn't matter which it is, what matters is manifesting a miracle out of love and intention. What do you get out of it besides the intrinsic reward and joy of giving? The validation and confidence of creating your own miracles. .
My thoughts are prayer this morning were immediate and full of fantasy, so to speak. It is healthy and powerful to fantasize about the love and joy and the world you want to live in and have. So, I fantasize and see in my mind's eye, our children remembering the unconditional love we have always had for them. They look at pictures and realize that my husband and I were always the photographer, the one behind the lens and therefore not in the photographs of those precious moments. The dream continues that they begin to remember us taking them to church and nurturing their spiritual life, taking the names of children off Christmas trees to provide gifts for and they remember the hours I sat alone at their recitals, concerts, games and tournaments. There were school birthday parties for their classes and slumber parties. Homework without tears and driving back around the block to give money to the homeless. The realization that hearsay doesn't jive with the Truth as they have experienced it will be felt throughout their entire beings. True Peace overcomes them and a strength forgotten surfaces. Without thought or need to understand, without communicating with each other, all of the children pack their bags in their respective homes and make their way to our door knowing that our love is here, unconditional and waiting for them just as God waits for us to return Home.
They all descend upon the house on Christmas with an exuberant hugs and kisses and tears of joy. Holiday lights seem brighter and more vibrant, the home warmer and full of life. There is nothing to be said, nothing to be heard. Love is an energy that is felt and lived. Love dis-spells all myths, fear, and confusion. There is nothing to forgive.
Laughter rings out late into the night. Time does not exist and the time lost is now erased. I steal away from the festivities and slip into my sacred space. I fall to my knees in front of my altar. Silent tears of gratitude and joy run down my cheeks. I say a prayer of thanks for you and the miracle you have created.
Miracles are not just for holidays and Biblical times. They are not for others, they are for all of us including and especially you. The more miracles are noticed, the more they occur. You havie read this and maybe for a moment or two, you felt love and compassion in your heart; in this you have created a miracle in my life. I cannot find words that express my gratitude for you and to you, but Thank you.
To make a prayer more powerful, it is believed that the prayer should be said, it should be vocal. Perhaps the question in my mind is if the prayer is written is it as powerful as vocal? Voice gives it vibration and creation and life is vibration. We are vibration. I cannot help but think of how dancing makes me feel. The more I sing and dance, the more alive I feel. Vibration is jumped started with every extreme emotion. After crying I feel cleared and more alive.
Scientists have found that when the number of people praying number at least the square root of one percent of the population that is being prayed for, the praying can move mountains. On the day of 9/11, the measurements done on the earth painted a remarkably different picture than any other day. The world was praying and the energies being measured showed this peace and the crime rate all over the well fell to almost non-existent. Mass prayer is phenomenal. What if the prayer was written and many people read it, would it be just as powerful as the prayers said by several people at one time?Another dimension to the effectiveness of prayer is to pray from the heart. It is understood by many that you can manifest your desires by thought as discussed in the book, "The Secret", which is powerful, but logic and reason male and male is duality. In duality, if your joy from your answered prayer is 70%, then you can expect an opposite of 70% which can come in the form of grief, sadness, frustration or anger. Praying from the heart is female. Female or the feminine creates. Creating from the heart is in Unity, but not in duality. Therefore, your answered prayers are pure joy.
Staying mindful and focused on our thoughts in each and every moment is difficult at first. You see I wrote, "at first". Like all of our abilities and thinking skills, we need to practice the skill. No doubt it will be even more frustrating for anyone who sits in front of a television for hours. Television is broadcast in a manner that only requires focus for two to three minutes at a time. Even worse for our children, television shows are written in the speaking vocabulary of second graders and most newspapers are written on the fifth grade level. We are programmed in our media to be receptors, not thinkers or creators. To be mindful will require that we use our own minds and be aware and present always. It is not hard, just different. Being mindful is a form of prayer to me. Thoughts create, the Universe responds to our thoughts. Therefore, to me, each thought is a mini-prayer beginning creation of joy in my life .I should write that this is my experience.
What if I wrote my fantasy and it was read by all of you? Would your mind and heart manifest it into reality? The part of me that loves science is challenged to experiment. Or maybe it is a part of me that knows this is true and wants validation and an energy boost. It doesn't matter which it is, what matters is manifesting a miracle out of love and intention. What do you get out of it besides the intrinsic reward and joy of giving? The validation and confidence of creating your own miracles. .
My thoughts are prayer this morning were immediate and full of fantasy, so to speak. It is healthy and powerful to fantasize about the love and joy and the world you want to live in and have. So, I fantasize and see in my mind's eye, our children remembering the unconditional love we have always had for them. They look at pictures and realize that my husband and I were always the photographer, the one behind the lens and therefore not in the photographs of those precious moments. The dream continues that they begin to remember us taking them to church and nurturing their spiritual life, taking the names of children off Christmas trees to provide gifts for and they remember the hours I sat alone at their recitals, concerts, games and tournaments. There were school birthday parties for their classes and slumber parties. Homework without tears and driving back around the block to give money to the homeless. The realization that hearsay doesn't jive with the Truth as they have experienced it will be felt throughout their entire beings. True Peace overcomes them and a strength forgotten surfaces. Without thought or need to understand, without communicating with each other, all of the children pack their bags in their respective homes and make their way to our door knowing that our love is here, unconditional and waiting for them just as God waits for us to return Home.
They all descend upon the house on Christmas with an exuberant hugs and kisses and tears of joy. Holiday lights seem brighter and more vibrant, the home warmer and full of life. There is nothing to be said, nothing to be heard. Love is an energy that is felt and lived. Love dis-spells all myths, fear, and confusion. There is nothing to forgive.
Laughter rings out late into the night. Time does not exist and the time lost is now erased. I steal away from the festivities and slip into my sacred space. I fall to my knees in front of my altar. Silent tears of gratitude and joy run down my cheeks. I say a prayer of thanks for you and the miracle you have created.
Miracles are not just for holidays and Biblical times. They are not for others, they are for all of us including and especially you. The more miracles are noticed, the more they occur. You havie read this and maybe for a moment or two, you felt love and compassion in your heart; in this you have created a miracle in my life. I cannot find words that express my gratitude for you and to you, but Thank you.
Saturday, November 23, 2013
Miracles and Messages Don't Just Happen to Others
Fear is a powerful emotion. Give us anything unknown and our mind runs away with it. Tell us there is something appearing on an MRI or an x-ray and our mind runs so fast that we have planned our funeral and gone through a full blown-out depression before more tests are scheduled. More often than not, we have allowed this fear of robbing us of precious moments of our lives in celebration.
I asked a couple if I could give them a Wholeness Blessing. With this blessing, Archangel Michael moves through the hands of the person attuned to the vibrations and ArachangeL Michael moves through the hands like a energy circuit, healing the person receiving this Blessing - Mind, Body, Soul and Spirit. The husband and his wife looked at each other with great fear and then looked down at their feet. Neither spoke nor answered. This surprised me as this couple regularly attends a local church which is where I met them and it is the first and only refusal or fear that I have experienced in offering the Wholeness Blessing.
What would invoke this extreme discomfort? Is it that they believe that Archangel Michael existed in Biblical history but not now? Are Angels only for Jesus and his disciples and his mother, Mary? Are we not just a deserving and worthy? Did they see me as crazy or a religious fanatic?
Did Jesus, Buddha. Elohim and others experience this same rejection and ridicule when they shared the Love of their God with others? How difficult it must have been to share with others that miracles are meant for them, too.
Christian or not, it is safe to say that most of us know the story of Mary, the Mother of Jesus. Mary's faith was so deep and unfaltering that she was chosen for the Immaculate Conception. What we fail to see is that when the Angel came to her, she did not worry that she was crazy or what others would think of her. She believed with her Be-ing. She KNEW that the message was real. The Angel was real. Today, you will find magazines filled with stories of miracles at Christmas time. There are hundreds of authors who write of Angels, God (by any name), miracles, Guides and Illuminated Beings of Light. Since these authors sell their books, we can assume that people believe in Angels, God and Guides. But, experience shows that most people reading these books and attending their public engagements believe that these people are chosen. Communication and guidance is for others and not for them. They long for miracles and messages from Angels and loved ones that have passed, yet they do not believe that they are worthy or capable themselves.
Miracles happen to each of us everyday. The problem is that we do not notice them or we may not acknowledge them for what they are. In truth, the more we notice miracles, the more they happen. The more we live in gratitude, the more we have to be grateful for.
We believe that we have Guardian Angels, but we do not remember to believe in this angel when times are dark. We pray with words, but do we pray with our Hearts? Do we believe our words, our prayers or do we same them because they are a ritual, a rite? Many of us say we are worthy, but yet we don't believe that we are worthy enough to hear from God. Worthy is absolute, Either you are or you are not.
I asked a couple if I could give them a Wholeness Blessing. With this blessing, Archangel Michael moves through the hands of the person attuned to the vibrations and ArachangeL Michael moves through the hands like a energy circuit, healing the person receiving this Blessing - Mind, Body, Soul and Spirit. The husband and his wife looked at each other with great fear and then looked down at their feet. Neither spoke nor answered. This surprised me as this couple regularly attends a local church which is where I met them and it is the first and only refusal or fear that I have experienced in offering the Wholeness Blessing.
What would invoke this extreme discomfort? Is it that they believe that Archangel Michael existed in Biblical history but not now? Are Angels only for Jesus and his disciples and his mother, Mary? Are we not just a deserving and worthy? Did they see me as crazy or a religious fanatic?
Did Jesus, Buddha. Elohim and others experience this same rejection and ridicule when they shared the Love of their God with others? How difficult it must have been to share with others that miracles are meant for them, too.
Christian or not, it is safe to say that most of us know the story of Mary, the Mother of Jesus. Mary's faith was so deep and unfaltering that she was chosen for the Immaculate Conception. What we fail to see is that when the Angel came to her, she did not worry that she was crazy or what others would think of her. She believed with her Be-ing. She KNEW that the message was real. The Angel was real. Today, you will find magazines filled with stories of miracles at Christmas time. There are hundreds of authors who write of Angels, God (by any name), miracles, Guides and Illuminated Beings of Light. Since these authors sell their books, we can assume that people believe in Angels, God and Guides. But, experience shows that most people reading these books and attending their public engagements believe that these people are chosen. Communication and guidance is for others and not for them. They long for miracles and messages from Angels and loved ones that have passed, yet they do not believe that they are worthy or capable themselves.
Miracles happen to each of us everyday. The problem is that we do not notice them or we may not acknowledge them for what they are. In truth, the more we notice miracles, the more they happen. The more we live in gratitude, the more we have to be grateful for.
We believe that we have Guardian Angels, but we do not remember to believe in this angel when times are dark. We pray with words, but do we pray with our Hearts? Do we believe our words, our prayers or do we same them because they are a ritual, a rite? Many of us say we are worthy, but yet we don't believe that we are worthy enough to hear from God. Worthy is absolute, Either you are or you are not.
Bulletin: YOU ARE WORTHY!Close your eyes and allow yourself to feel your heart and your inner body. Notice how you feel when you allow yourself to feel worthy and loved. This feels awesome because it is true. Your soul loves the truth. Hold on to it. Hold on to your truth and seek the miracles in each moment. They are meant for you.
Monday, November 19, 2012
My Umbilical Cord
Have you ever met someone and felt that you have known them? Or perhaps you had a relationship and for some unknown reason it ended, but the two of you still feel linked together despite the break by some invisible umbilical cord? Do you have long distance friendships that maintain a strong, loving bond and a comfortable aura despite the miles and time between visits?
We do connect on the Energic Level with those in our lives. If you are a woman and carried a child, your child was in your energy and continued to be in your energy as you nursed and cared for him or her in the beginning years. This can be seen when observing infants and toddlers as they quickly cling to their mothers in the presence of strangers. This bond between mother and child is real and it, too, is a bond on the Energic Level. Making love to and with the most wonderful person in the world takes the lovers beyond the physical level as they share their energies melding them into one. The two become One.They are united. They are united in energy. Love is energy. They are united in love.
In our personal relationships it does not matter what happens, one loves unconditionally. One makes the effort to understand what happened, what moved them to behave a certain way or to do something or to say something. Mistakes and misunderstandings are overlooked because the love is unconditional. Each person forgives. Most probably, no one keeps score. Those who accept others without judgment love unconditionally.
There are many people we cross paths with and we choose not to befriend them. It may be they wear different clothes or we assume that we have nothing in common. Perhaps, you feel uncomfortable around them--sometimes in this case we are really picking up that this person is uncomfortable around us. For whatever reason that we continue to exclude others from our inner circle, it all comes down judgment and assumptions. It also boils down to the exchange of energy between you. What if everyone could see people as God sees them? Not as Peggy, Joe or Mary in a body of skin and hair and maybe Gothic clothes, but as Peggy, Joe or Mary in a spirit. Who we are is magnificent and wondrous. We are not our personalities and our egos, but indeed we are Souls and we are Spirit.
I am not suggesting that you do not maintain your boundaries or make discernment's, I am proposing that you consider a much larger picture of life. In 100 billion galaxies with 100 billion stars in each, is there more to us than just skin and egos? I believe that there is far more to each of us and our Universe, and every single person is perfect. Looking beyond our skin and our egos each one of us is absolutely perfect. What does this have to do with energy?
We are perfect because we of of God/Divine/Creator/Buddha.....any name of any deity that you wish to use. A rose is a rose no matter what language you use to name it. In the moment that you believe that you are perfect and not just made and separate from your Creator is the moment you begin to awaken. You love your child because you Know your child. You love your lover because you know your lover. You feel that bond with the stranger you meet and feel like you have known each other a long time because you have. Beyond your conscious mind, you know this person. Your connection on the Energic Level through your energy body is very real. Each of us is of the same energy and particles that make up the Universe. We are energy. We are love. We are inter-connected. This is something so wondrous and awesome that at first one is overwhelmed and perhaps even skeptical.
As we were taught as youngsters, God is in everything, everywhere. Someone forgot to also include that God is within us. As you accept and believe that you are perfect and of God you will begin to see others as God and Spirit sees us. In walking in our Light we find freedom. For in Light, there can be no darkness, therefore dark thoughts including doubt, jealousy, concern or worry cannot exist in your Mind.
I do believe that is why I love my work as a Soul Coach ®. My passion is to help others clear away all of this ego clutter and to understand that in each moment that the experience just lived in that moment creates us anew. We are a new person many times throughout a single day. It is the insistence of keeping a life story that impedes one's ability to lovingly create and connect with All That Is. Through understanding self-talk, beliefs, learned behaviors and assumptions that make it possible to detach from all that is not in one's highest good, providing a clear path for him or her to re-connect with the Soul, the very path to feeling once again the connection to God/Divine/Creator. Joy, pure joy!
You and I am Creator. You and I are magnificent and perfect. We are inter-connected with the umbilical cord that is energy- that is Love. Bless others with good health, prosperity, abundance, clarity, peace and love (even if you must do this silently in your mind) for in doing so you are blessing your Self. You are worthy of living a life of abundance, clarity, joy, love and peace as it is your Divine Right.
We do connect on the Energic Level with those in our lives. If you are a woman and carried a child, your child was in your energy and continued to be in your energy as you nursed and cared for him or her in the beginning years. This can be seen when observing infants and toddlers as they quickly cling to their mothers in the presence of strangers. This bond between mother and child is real and it, too, is a bond on the Energic Level. Making love to and with the most wonderful person in the world takes the lovers beyond the physical level as they share their energies melding them into one. The two become One.They are united. They are united in energy. Love is energy. They are united in love.
In our personal relationships it does not matter what happens, one loves unconditionally. One makes the effort to understand what happened, what moved them to behave a certain way or to do something or to say something. Mistakes and misunderstandings are overlooked because the love is unconditional. Each person forgives. Most probably, no one keeps score. Those who accept others without judgment love unconditionally.
There are many people we cross paths with and we choose not to befriend them. It may be they wear different clothes or we assume that we have nothing in common. Perhaps, you feel uncomfortable around them--sometimes in this case we are really picking up that this person is uncomfortable around us. For whatever reason that we continue to exclude others from our inner circle, it all comes down judgment and assumptions. It also boils down to the exchange of energy between you. What if everyone could see people as God sees them? Not as Peggy, Joe or Mary in a body of skin and hair and maybe Gothic clothes, but as Peggy, Joe or Mary in a spirit. Who we are is magnificent and wondrous. We are not our personalities and our egos, but indeed we are Souls and we are Spirit.
I am not suggesting that you do not maintain your boundaries or make discernment's, I am proposing that you consider a much larger picture of life. In 100 billion galaxies with 100 billion stars in each, is there more to us than just skin and egos? I believe that there is far more to each of us and our Universe, and every single person is perfect. Looking beyond our skin and our egos each one of us is absolutely perfect. What does this have to do with energy?
We are perfect because we of of God/Divine/Creator/Buddha.....any name of any deity that you wish to use. A rose is a rose no matter what language you use to name it. In the moment that you believe that you are perfect and not just made and separate from your Creator is the moment you begin to awaken. You love your child because you Know your child. You love your lover because you know your lover. You feel that bond with the stranger you meet and feel like you have known each other a long time because you have. Beyond your conscious mind, you know this person. Your connection on the Energic Level through your energy body is very real. Each of us is of the same energy and particles that make up the Universe. We are energy. We are love. We are inter-connected. This is something so wondrous and awesome that at first one is overwhelmed and perhaps even skeptical.
As we were taught as youngsters, God is in everything, everywhere. Someone forgot to also include that God is within us. As you accept and believe that you are perfect and of God you will begin to see others as God and Spirit sees us. In walking in our Light we find freedom. For in Light, there can be no darkness, therefore dark thoughts including doubt, jealousy, concern or worry cannot exist in your Mind.
I do believe that is why I love my work as a Soul Coach ®. My passion is to help others clear away all of this ego clutter and to understand that in each moment that the experience just lived in that moment creates us anew. We are a new person many times throughout a single day. It is the insistence of keeping a life story that impedes one's ability to lovingly create and connect with All That Is. Through understanding self-talk, beliefs, learned behaviors and assumptions that make it possible to detach from all that is not in one's highest good, providing a clear path for him or her to re-connect with the Soul, the very path to feeling once again the connection to God/Divine/Creator. Joy, pure joy!
You and I am Creator. You and I are magnificent and perfect. We are inter-connected with the umbilical cord that is energy- that is Love. Bless others with good health, prosperity, abundance, clarity, peace and love (even if you must do this silently in your mind) for in doing so you are blessing your Self. You are worthy of living a life of abundance, clarity, joy, love and peace as it is your Divine Right.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Why So Hellbent on Believing on a Person is Sheer Evil?
We all have been affected by the tragedy in Aurora in some way. We can all agree that the victims, their families, the witnesses to the rampage in the theatre and the aftermath are all profoundly affected. Prayers from around the world are made in earnest, but are there any prayers for the killer?
I can feel the outrage in the responses in questioning the active prayers for the killer. Understandably so. For years it has been taught in many cultures an eye for an eye. But, has it been taught to believe that a killer just woke up one day in his happy go lucky Self, his Loving Self that is his connection to the Creator and in his most loving and joyous state of being take the life and maim his brother for the mere sake of doing so? This is not a question of sanity or an excuse to kill or a pardon. It is merely an effort to understand why as a "Nation Under God" do we not exhibit His love; instead we choose an emotional reaction of hate and revenge.
Discernment is necessary in being human, as is having boundaries and consequences. I am not advocating excusing any violent behavior, I am advocating that we see these tragedies as a reminder to send Love to those who do no longer recognize their Source, their Soul nor recognize their Self. Have none of us had a moment of emotional outburst when we behaved in a manner that we regret? Most of us cannot even fathom the depth of the darkness of the mind or emotions that could move a loving being to take such incomprehensible and appalling actions. We have never personally experienced anything of this magnitude, therefore, for us, we choose to believe that if we did not experience it, it cannot be.
Quite limiting in our loving nature, isn't it? To wish that another human being was pure evil and in his loving mind and heart chose monstrous and wicked behavior against another. In truth, the idea that other human beings are evil and perhaps sitting next to me on a bus or in a stadium is quite more frightening and disheartening than the thought that humans that are profoundly affected could lose their ability to love and reason.
To love and reason. Love is originates in the heart, in Spirit. To reason is a function of the Mind. Yes, it definitely is an issue that the suspect meticulously planned out this entire nightmare, therefore leaving us to question the validity of his innocence by insanity. We can be assured that his defense will defend him in the light that he was delusional during the planning and the systemic attack.
We can agree that the suspect should not walk among us in our daily lives. We can agree that his actions are in the very least reprehensible. The question is can we as a "Nation Under God" begin to pray for the Soul and Spirit of this man? Can we feel and know in our hearts that to help one man is to help ourselves? We are not praising him, excusing him nor are we pardoning him. We are praying for ourselves. Should anyone of us ever have a moment that we need the Grace of God and for others to understand our humanness, would not this be the same?
Humanity requires us to show people how to love, not to tell them to do it. Humanity requires all of us to forgive which is not to condone, nor forget, nor accept- forgiving is for the sake of Self as well as the sake of all humanity. Why would we choose to hold onto hate and hostility? These emotions serve only to bring us down. We can hold another accountable in our system without allowing ourselves to be beguiled by fear and live in hate. To live this way- in tremendous fear and hate is not only unhealthy, it is not the intent of our human experience. These emotions are polar to our innate loving selves and our connection to our Creator,our Source or our God.
Many scriptures come to mind as well as non-religious tenets, but they need not be cited. What is important to hear and to feel is your own Truth. This can be done when you sit in solitude, allowing the mind to rest as it is part of our Ego and personality, you want to feel and hear the Soul and Spirit. In the moments of connecting to your Creator and your loving Self allow yourself to feel your love, your Truth and the direction you must take. What would truly benefit not only you, but all of humanity in these trying times.
In silence we must also ask, do we wish to be part of the solution or do we wish to continue doing business as it has always been done, reaping the same results as it always has? Is Mother Earth and humanity in a better place? Only if we help it.
I can feel the outrage in the responses in questioning the active prayers for the killer. Understandably so. For years it has been taught in many cultures an eye for an eye. But, has it been taught to believe that a killer just woke up one day in his happy go lucky Self, his Loving Self that is his connection to the Creator and in his most loving and joyous state of being take the life and maim his brother for the mere sake of doing so? This is not a question of sanity or an excuse to kill or a pardon. It is merely an effort to understand why as a "Nation Under God" do we not exhibit His love; instead we choose an emotional reaction of hate and revenge.
Discernment is necessary in being human, as is having boundaries and consequences. I am not advocating excusing any violent behavior, I am advocating that we see these tragedies as a reminder to send Love to those who do no longer recognize their Source, their Soul nor recognize their Self. Have none of us had a moment of emotional outburst when we behaved in a manner that we regret? Most of us cannot even fathom the depth of the darkness of the mind or emotions that could move a loving being to take such incomprehensible and appalling actions. We have never personally experienced anything of this magnitude, therefore, for us, we choose to believe that if we did not experience it, it cannot be.
Quite limiting in our loving nature, isn't it? To wish that another human being was pure evil and in his loving mind and heart chose monstrous and wicked behavior against another. In truth, the idea that other human beings are evil and perhaps sitting next to me on a bus or in a stadium is quite more frightening and disheartening than the thought that humans that are profoundly affected could lose their ability to love and reason.
To love and reason. Love is originates in the heart, in Spirit. To reason is a function of the Mind. Yes, it definitely is an issue that the suspect meticulously planned out this entire nightmare, therefore leaving us to question the validity of his innocence by insanity. We can be assured that his defense will defend him in the light that he was delusional during the planning and the systemic attack.
We can agree that the suspect should not walk among us in our daily lives. We can agree that his actions are in the very least reprehensible. The question is can we as a "Nation Under God" begin to pray for the Soul and Spirit of this man? Can we feel and know in our hearts that to help one man is to help ourselves? We are not praising him, excusing him nor are we pardoning him. We are praying for ourselves. Should anyone of us ever have a moment that we need the Grace of God and for others to understand our humanness, would not this be the same?
Humanity requires us to show people how to love, not to tell them to do it. Humanity requires all of us to forgive which is not to condone, nor forget, nor accept- forgiving is for the sake of Self as well as the sake of all humanity. Why would we choose to hold onto hate and hostility? These emotions serve only to bring us down. We can hold another accountable in our system without allowing ourselves to be beguiled by fear and live in hate. To live this way- in tremendous fear and hate is not only unhealthy, it is not the intent of our human experience. These emotions are polar to our innate loving selves and our connection to our Creator,our Source or our God.
Many scriptures come to mind as well as non-religious tenets, but they need not be cited. What is important to hear and to feel is your own Truth. This can be done when you sit in solitude, allowing the mind to rest as it is part of our Ego and personality, you want to feel and hear the Soul and Spirit. In the moments of connecting to your Creator and your loving Self allow yourself to feel your love, your Truth and the direction you must take. What would truly benefit not only you, but all of humanity in these trying times.
In silence we must also ask, do we wish to be part of the solution or do we wish to continue doing business as it has always been done, reaping the same results as it always has? Is Mother Earth and humanity in a better place? Only if we help it.
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Serving Humanity is Silent
I am planning to live to be 120 years old which gives me 43,800 days to spend. Too bad I could not live on one dollar a day. I am grateful that I have so many days, but should I have miscalculated and I only live to be 80, my bank of days would only be 29,200. Do I wish to spend each day existing or living? What is living? I could utter today's buzzwords and believe that I should live my life's purpose, my mission and I should raise my consciousness. I could merely be happy by being grateful for each breath that I take that defines the fact that I am indeed still alive. I am sure that if I took all of these ideals, ideas, values and understandings they would all be in the mix of what I should be doing with my life, but is it enough and do I really live this way?
What does it mean to raise our consciousness? Does it mean our own consciousness, all of humanity's or just the consciousness of those who follow our rules? Where do we raise them to? Do we define this as bringing our soul to consciousness or do we understand that we are Light or Love and whose definition? Is there a higher aspiration than raising consciousness? What is my mission? As I follow discussions on these issues one thing becomes very clear to me, we are searching for these answers. We ask others, we read books and we attend workshops and fly to another city to hear someone we trust entirely to tell us what it is that we need to hear.
Why is it that so many need to hear what it is that should be done, or felt or thought? We do know that there are many people that have these needs. These people have been directed for so long that they no longer have the ability to think or feel for themselves. I often think of how George Orwell used animals in Animal Farm to depict how our society functions. In doing so, he astutely paints the picture of those animals who want to be fed and taken care of, but do not do well unless someone else is leading the barnyard and giving directions. The big question is why do these animals or these humans in real life live in fear and chose to relinquish their responsibilities for self? How do we eradicate that fear and what do we replace that fear with?
There are so many loving souls that do live by their values and walk in their purpose. These wonderful people generously give to help others discover their true calling, find Self Love, find their life's purpose, their soul's mission, raise their consciousness, find God and maybe simply improve themselves and their lives. We have wonderful Life Coaches, mediums, healers and members of the Clergy who dedicate themselves to helping others find what it is that they alone cannot. This is wonderful. This is empowering and it is selfless. For many this is a calling and I respect it as so. I hold gratitude for this work and those who do it.
We have all of this help for those who recognize that they need it. After finding an answer or being helped in one's life, does one continue to look for answers and continue to seek growth? I was provoked to think about these concerns after attending an appearance of a beloved teacher of many this past weekend. I had never heard of him before, but I drove a good friend into the city to hear his words as she had been his student for many years. A man behind me asked me why I was attending and followed my response by admonishing me that I had no right to hear this man as I did not have Knowledge. The rest of this conversation I shall leave for the next blog, but for this moment is needs to be written that this is an example of my question, my concern, my point. I listened to those around me for two hours and I discovered that for them, this man, his words, his direction was the only Way. The only source of the answers to what they were seeking.
As I waited in the venue for my friend to finish her volunteer work, I watched the audience with interest. Some attendees could not escape fast enough. I had my feet stomped on and I was knocked to the side by another older woman. I stood at the landing of the steps and continued taking in the atmosphere. I was expecting more people to be patient, smiling, courteous and calm as they excited the seating areas. Certainly, we had all just been moved to live in our Hearts and to be loving. Yet, though many of those rushing out to their cars and hotels had already forgotten the words. I took solace in those who smiled as they passed, radiating joy and love. My friend approached, her eyes dancing with joy, she glowed; it was beyond happiness, it was a white light emitting from her energy. The answer to my question.
I wondered if we continued to seek what it was we were missing. I contemplated about those who never consider the subject. I wanted to know if the people who thought about each day as a wondrous gift, actively and purposefully live their life to the fullest. The most probable answer is that many do, many do not, but it is definitely not something to fear. Remembering that we are all connected, we are all of Source must be felt and understood in terms of all humanity, even those not of our faith and those who do not feel worthy. Those who left the venue smiling and radiating already were Knowing, they already understood that continuing to live in Word is the way. They did not question their work nor did they seem concerned about how many they could affect in a loving way. They remember that each time that anyone of us lifts up one human being, including ourselves, we lift up all of humanity. We cannot choose whom to lift nor may we judge others to be exempt of our love, our gifts, our healing and our Light. To live each day as if it were the most wondrous gift is the present to humanity. It does not matter how humanity learns to live and those who understand know that their work and their efforts to advance humanity does not require recognition, nor do they need it. All that matters is the way they choose to spend their day.
What does it mean to raise our consciousness? Does it mean our own consciousness, all of humanity's or just the consciousness of those who follow our rules? Where do we raise them to? Do we define this as bringing our soul to consciousness or do we understand that we are Light or Love and whose definition? Is there a higher aspiration than raising consciousness? What is my mission? As I follow discussions on these issues one thing becomes very clear to me, we are searching for these answers. We ask others, we read books and we attend workshops and fly to another city to hear someone we trust entirely to tell us what it is that we need to hear.
Why is it that so many need to hear what it is that should be done, or felt or thought? We do know that there are many people that have these needs. These people have been directed for so long that they no longer have the ability to think or feel for themselves. I often think of how George Orwell used animals in Animal Farm to depict how our society functions. In doing so, he astutely paints the picture of those animals who want to be fed and taken care of, but do not do well unless someone else is leading the barnyard and giving directions. The big question is why do these animals or these humans in real life live in fear and chose to relinquish their responsibilities for self? How do we eradicate that fear and what do we replace that fear with?
There are so many loving souls that do live by their values and walk in their purpose. These wonderful people generously give to help others discover their true calling, find Self Love, find their life's purpose, their soul's mission, raise their consciousness, find God and maybe simply improve themselves and their lives. We have wonderful Life Coaches, mediums, healers and members of the Clergy who dedicate themselves to helping others find what it is that they alone cannot. This is wonderful. This is empowering and it is selfless. For many this is a calling and I respect it as so. I hold gratitude for this work and those who do it.
We have all of this help for those who recognize that they need it. After finding an answer or being helped in one's life, does one continue to look for answers and continue to seek growth? I was provoked to think about these concerns after attending an appearance of a beloved teacher of many this past weekend. I had never heard of him before, but I drove a good friend into the city to hear his words as she had been his student for many years. A man behind me asked me why I was attending and followed my response by admonishing me that I had no right to hear this man as I did not have Knowledge. The rest of this conversation I shall leave for the next blog, but for this moment is needs to be written that this is an example of my question, my concern, my point. I listened to those around me for two hours and I discovered that for them, this man, his words, his direction was the only Way. The only source of the answers to what they were seeking.
As I waited in the venue for my friend to finish her volunteer work, I watched the audience with interest. Some attendees could not escape fast enough. I had my feet stomped on and I was knocked to the side by another older woman. I stood at the landing of the steps and continued taking in the atmosphere. I was expecting more people to be patient, smiling, courteous and calm as they excited the seating areas. Certainly, we had all just been moved to live in our Hearts and to be loving. Yet, though many of those rushing out to their cars and hotels had already forgotten the words. I took solace in those who smiled as they passed, radiating joy and love. My friend approached, her eyes dancing with joy, she glowed; it was beyond happiness, it was a white light emitting from her energy. The answer to my question.
I wondered if we continued to seek what it was we were missing. I contemplated about those who never consider the subject. I wanted to know if the people who thought about each day as a wondrous gift, actively and purposefully live their life to the fullest. The most probable answer is that many do, many do not, but it is definitely not something to fear. Remembering that we are all connected, we are all of Source must be felt and understood in terms of all humanity, even those not of our faith and those who do not feel worthy. Those who left the venue smiling and radiating already were Knowing, they already understood that continuing to live in Word is the way. They did not question their work nor did they seem concerned about how many they could affect in a loving way. They remember that each time that anyone of us lifts up one human being, including ourselves, we lift up all of humanity. We cannot choose whom to lift nor may we judge others to be exempt of our love, our gifts, our healing and our Light. To live each day as if it were the most wondrous gift is the present to humanity. It does not matter how humanity learns to live and those who understand know that their work and their efforts to advance humanity does not require recognition, nor do they need it. All that matters is the way they choose to spend their day.
Monday, July 2, 2012
Dear son - my firstborn and treasured child,
Gazing upon the picture of you and your girlfriend I see sheer happiness and love. Your eyes dance, even in the pouring rain. For the first time in many years, I see the little boy who loves life. I write this letter to you, not to relay my approval, but to hopefully further open the door to your heart and to release all fears of abandonment, release all pain incurred by eroneous misunderstandings and to release all misconceptions of how a loved one behaves toward another. I am not in your daily life enabling me to have these parental discussions with you, maybe in time I will be.
You have heard many things about me, many of those you are unaware of my knowledge of them. Ah, your mind asks how could I know about them? Your lack of communication, your body language when you have just spent time with certain individuals, your defensiveness on those occasions and the mere fact that you seem to have only one parent and it does not seem to be me. I am exceptionally insightful, perceptive and quite often I am given these truths.
There is nothing that I can defend or say. You see, to defend myself would be to speak truthfully about individuals which would not only place you in the middle by both parents actions, it would also cause you greater pain than you already are experiencing. To share with you the truths behind my actions would be just as destructive. It is not my intent to ask you choose sides nor is it my intent to place upon you the heavy burden truth that should remain only between the two individuals that it belongs to.
My loving son, you are the most compassionate, loving, giving human being. You are always more than fair to others, maybe sometimes to the point you are not fair to yourself. You are a peacemaker. I am sorry to have made peace in your presence to the exclusion of loving myself. I believed that keeping peace at all cost was protecting all three of you children to learn that I really was teaching you to sell yourself out at all costs. Please forgive me.
Looking back I recollect the days, nights and weekends that I did not see you during the tumultuous times. It was not because I abandoned you or was not there- I was. Your brother and sister were with me always. Holidays, during your games and wrestling matches, before school and after. Each school day I would be with them doing laundry, cooking dinner, assisting with homework and even cleaning the house. My departure from Lovell Gulch was always just before you came home, not out of not wanting to see you, but because of my need to have safe departure and to ensure calm seas for the three of you. I missed you then so terribly. The pain was unbearable prompting me to move back in after the divorce thinking that being a mother was far more important than anything I would have to endure.
Son, I never left you. I was demanded to leave the first time. Having already found the phone numbers, home addresses and phone bills, I accepted that your father had already moved on and was dating while we were married was not conducive to fighting to stay that horrible night that you overheard his command. So much happened behind closed doors, so much happened outside of your home. It is not something I wish to inflict upon you nor re-live by writing it to you. For so long, I thought you would ask questions so I kept boxes and boxes of evidence of my innocence. I often hoped you would want to know, you would question what you were told. Now, it doesn't matter.
You matter - what you know doesn't matter. I trust in you, your love, your Spirit. You see son, I have seen the "knowing" in you. I have witnessed your heart and your ability to love, love yourself and others. I have felt your Spirit. I have had the honor of knowing that you kept a promise given on a deathbed demonstrating your integrity. You have worked for goals with perserverance, determination and intense focus. You have given to others out of extreme compassion without ever a thought of what was in it for you. You are one of the most honest people I know. I am very blessed to witness your Spirit in life.
I remember observing you "knowing" things small children do not know, reading the Bible which seemed to be inspired from some need within and I remember so many occasions when you would speak the truth as you experienced it. There were times I vividly remember watching with great awe and shock as I witnessed the verbal lashing you would receive as you stood standing bravely in your truthfulness, the vehemently spoken words thrown at you changing your reality, your knowing.
Having your paradigm or your reality shifted is not an accusation of weakness nor considered a fault. It is an incredible manipulation of the mind. I could see it. I understand it because I lived it myself. To explain it more clearly son, it could be likened to Doublethink and Doublespeak as demonstrated in George Orwell's, 1984. This is not something one is aware of, it is subtle. It is a learned behavior. It follows the belief and statement often used, "A good defense is a good offense." I often blamed myself from not saving you from this experience, yet, with time, I have learned that it was not my place to do so. No more than it was my mother's place to save me from it either. What is important is what I now do as a mother to assist your healing.
As I pray daily with the intention of your healing and strength I pray for courage that you may feel your Soul, know thy Spirit, to feel your heart so full of love, I do not pray with the intention to change your reality. It is my intention to ask your forgiveness as I have not been successful in winning the ability to stay in your life and by doing so, help you to stay true to your soul, your truth.
Dear son, I do not wish to ever hash "he said she said". I do not wish to ever discuss the past and have never desired to, at least in the past six years. It is why I have always remained silent. As a lawyer you know that the innocent does not need to prove their innocence, the accuser must bear the responsibility of proving one's guilt. I do not need to prove my innocence, and should I have wanted to prove anyone's guilt I had ample boxes of ammunition. Yet, I stayed silent. I still do. You are that important to me.
Your life, your being is so very important to me. So much so, that as I have written in the beginning that to impart your parents truth upon you would be to impart harsh, unbearable pain. I have lived those truths, it is unnecessary for you to live them. You have your own dark moments to endure and live through. All that I desire is to be your mother. I wish to be allowed to shower you with attention, love, gifts and support. I long to hold you, hug you and share your most joyous moments as well as those which cause you grief. I pine to be let in. I seek to be released from punishment of a crime not committed and above all, again, to be your mother.
You have heard many things about me, many of those you are unaware of my knowledge of them. Ah, your mind asks how could I know about them? Your lack of communication, your body language when you have just spent time with certain individuals, your defensiveness on those occasions and the mere fact that you seem to have only one parent and it does not seem to be me. I am exceptionally insightful, perceptive and quite often I am given these truths.
There is nothing that I can defend or say. You see, to defend myself would be to speak truthfully about individuals which would not only place you in the middle by both parents actions, it would also cause you greater pain than you already are experiencing. To share with you the truths behind my actions would be just as destructive. It is not my intent to ask you choose sides nor is it my intent to place upon you the heavy burden truth that should remain only between the two individuals that it belongs to.
My loving son, you are the most compassionate, loving, giving human being. You are always more than fair to others, maybe sometimes to the point you are not fair to yourself. You are a peacemaker. I am sorry to have made peace in your presence to the exclusion of loving myself. I believed that keeping peace at all cost was protecting all three of you children to learn that I really was teaching you to sell yourself out at all costs. Please forgive me.
Looking back I recollect the days, nights and weekends that I did not see you during the tumultuous times. It was not because I abandoned you or was not there- I was. Your brother and sister were with me always. Holidays, during your games and wrestling matches, before school and after. Each school day I would be with them doing laundry, cooking dinner, assisting with homework and even cleaning the house. My departure from Lovell Gulch was always just before you came home, not out of not wanting to see you, but because of my need to have safe departure and to ensure calm seas for the three of you. I missed you then so terribly. The pain was unbearable prompting me to move back in after the divorce thinking that being a mother was far more important than anything I would have to endure.
Son, I never left you. I was demanded to leave the first time. Having already found the phone numbers, home addresses and phone bills, I accepted that your father had already moved on and was dating while we were married was not conducive to fighting to stay that horrible night that you overheard his command. So much happened behind closed doors, so much happened outside of your home. It is not something I wish to inflict upon you nor re-live by writing it to you. For so long, I thought you would ask questions so I kept boxes and boxes of evidence of my innocence. I often hoped you would want to know, you would question what you were told. Now, it doesn't matter.
You matter - what you know doesn't matter. I trust in you, your love, your Spirit. You see son, I have seen the "knowing" in you. I have witnessed your heart and your ability to love, love yourself and others. I have felt your Spirit. I have had the honor of knowing that you kept a promise given on a deathbed demonstrating your integrity. You have worked for goals with perserverance, determination and intense focus. You have given to others out of extreme compassion without ever a thought of what was in it for you. You are one of the most honest people I know. I am very blessed to witness your Spirit in life.
I remember observing you "knowing" things small children do not know, reading the Bible which seemed to be inspired from some need within and I remember so many occasions when you would speak the truth as you experienced it. There were times I vividly remember watching with great awe and shock as I witnessed the verbal lashing you would receive as you stood standing bravely in your truthfulness, the vehemently spoken words thrown at you changing your reality, your knowing.
Having your paradigm or your reality shifted is not an accusation of weakness nor considered a fault. It is an incredible manipulation of the mind. I could see it. I understand it because I lived it myself. To explain it more clearly son, it could be likened to Doublethink and Doublespeak as demonstrated in George Orwell's, 1984. This is not something one is aware of, it is subtle. It is a learned behavior. It follows the belief and statement often used, "A good defense is a good offense." I often blamed myself from not saving you from this experience, yet, with time, I have learned that it was not my place to do so. No more than it was my mother's place to save me from it either. What is important is what I now do as a mother to assist your healing.
As I pray daily with the intention of your healing and strength I pray for courage that you may feel your Soul, know thy Spirit, to feel your heart so full of love, I do not pray with the intention to change your reality. It is my intention to ask your forgiveness as I have not been successful in winning the ability to stay in your life and by doing so, help you to stay true to your soul, your truth.
Dear son, I do not wish to ever hash "he said she said". I do not wish to ever discuss the past and have never desired to, at least in the past six years. It is why I have always remained silent. As a lawyer you know that the innocent does not need to prove their innocence, the accuser must bear the responsibility of proving one's guilt. I do not need to prove my innocence, and should I have wanted to prove anyone's guilt I had ample boxes of ammunition. Yet, I stayed silent. I still do. You are that important to me.
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